Bleh

I feel pretty blah today. I think it is a combo of eating stuff I shouldn't have yesterday, a market that won't stop going down (depressing even with SDS doing well), the continuing cold of winter and just general thinking about becoming 40 soon. It all combines to a good case of the blahs.

I think the main root of it has been me thinking too much about all of the cool things I have missed out on in life because I talk myself out of them. The main issue is my lack of desire to travel. (especially air travel) I don't understand it. I used to have no problem flying anywhere, then I couldn't do it at all for a while, then I got better and now I am back to just not wanting to do it again. I am really going to focus on taking one overseas trip in the next 6 months. If I am going to do 95% of the things I want to do I need to get this whole issue out of the way.

I think losing weight and getting my stomach in better shape would go a long way, so I am really focusing on that part now. I am down from ~300lbs to ~235lbs so I have to imagine that would help. I also am working with my doctor to get the stomach issues under control. I guess the next step is to pull the trigger and hop on a commercial flight to somewhere.

Ugh. It just sucks.

Is it too late?

I know it is ALREADY January 5th, but, I think I can still squeeze in some New Years Resolutions. I was feeling frustrated today and I have decided that it is because I have no long term goals right now. So, here goes... My New Years Resolutions:

• Get to 205 pounds (I think 200 is just pushing it)
• Successfully complete the Linux class I am teaching this spring
• Fix this stupid stomach problem once and for all
• Become competent in my Xingyi Qigong training and move into the fundamental moving patterns of Xingyiquan
• Figure out what to do for the next step in my organized education

Ok. That should do it. I think that is plenty to work on for this year. It also made for good filler today since I really don't feel like writing about anything.